seiji yoko.

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

holla.
im so mad!
why? Because of my supervisor lor!
Fed-up se with her, in fact not only her my otha therapist too.
How could they. K u think a P.H is suppose to be taken if its sumore your celebration like hari raya haji, BUT they didn't allow me to take it just bcos nobody cover for me! ish sort yeu noe. Just a one day cant be help. Since when it become like this law. Fuckin shit sia!
DOn't try to fool me uh plish~
Im not that stupid hor excuse me.
Urgh the more i tok abt it the more i get mad tinkin abt it/
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NExt is abt this idoitic pshyco maniac whu copy and paste my pic with my 2 piece in the net & forward it all to the unknown mailer.
im so fuckin surprise is i get that fuckin hell whu is behind all this crap!
yeu betta know hu yeu are!
psycho!
byie!

I am bleeding inside.
9:52 PM


Monday, November 27, 2006

argh!!
can't help it with this itchiness thats on my chest is so damn fuckin GATAL!
i had no idea what that cause it to becomin so red and itchy and i cannot bear this any longer cos my fingers are alwaes keep on gettin to the same spot and thats makin it worse and turns to rashes that i hate it.
I tried not to tink abt it soo much but each time its alwaes botherin me till i get fed-up and mad easily. Plus if im at werk_damn worse !
I tried a few cremes to soothes down the redness and the itchiness but stays the same unlike some day when its a-ok, im ok. Grr! The more i tok abt it, the more i want to scratch and rub it. DAMN!
HElp me!!
is it due to my eatin that i ate or polluted air in my lounge area @ werk place or i have a sensitive skin nowadays (if so i shud knew abt it haks!) or ??????? Simply i have no idea what does it cause.
Well i din go to the doctor yet but i mite be soon or later if this thingy becomin worsen.
OOH my i miss my skin. ouh pleasee..
oh-oh its back!
byie.
:(

I am bleeding inside.
10:26 PM


Sunday, November 26, 2006

holla.
oh my..
Days goes by damn fast till i din realize that its the last week of nov month. Times flies so quick oh gosh.
hmm to think back also its alright cos the faster the betta cos i can go SHOPPIN!
Yeu know what i mean.
hehe.
kay-kay back on track.
hmm what should i spent this time? Any ideas? Well No ideas la nie. CAnt think of any at the moment but theres a few which i need and want. It goes the same actually. ahaha! too few too mention uh. hehe.
nah jus kiddin. Seriously what should i spent this time and betta not be too over the budget. PLs!
Think thoroughly julia. Hehe!
WAnted to catch that movie The 9.56pm show.
Don't get it wrong yea for those who know OK bt those whu don its actually the title of the movie.
And its say its betta not to switch your lights BEFORE 9.56pm yea peeps! hahah! CANt wait ! Wanna follow? ANyone?
Bluek!`
urgh im gettin tired..need to rest now.
cheers!
muax

I am bleeding inside.
10:02 PM


Friday, November 24, 2006

oh my its friday again and its raining again and its a boring day again...all so much of a again!!
haha..im totally broke--bored--tired--hungry--urghh almost everyting is just not right with me.
why?. whats wrong nie..? im just totally blank. And plus tomorrow im back to work again and its goes the same each and every day, week, months..sian eu noe!
urghh don bother to continue/
shoot again when im back with MY mood!
miss eu!

I am bleeding inside.
3:38 PM


Wednesday, November 22, 2006

oh shit. I miss the post. urghh..its oke. Hmm been so fuckin quiet just like a ghost town. I dont dare to imagine that. Hakz! I wish i could meet up the person whom i most missin rite now! may i?.how i wish he knew. i guess and i don tink so..his been busy lately i tink. Let it be then.. Well to think hard its becomin harder. to think slow it becomin to much slower than what i expected. wat e heck! What a dilemma. Urghh my pay still has to wait for another week. I need the money asap. How i wish and wonder salary cums everyday in total of per month pay, it could be so much wonderful life im in yea. How i wish once upon a star...that day will come..I'm full of wishin the unlogical way of thinkin. Its not a crime kn.kn.agree? how i wish..Kaykay stoppPP!! Bact to track babe...no Matter whot i WINDU yeu!
im dyin to meet me yeu and hug yeu! how i wish..there she goes again.......hehe. cheers!

I am bleeding inside.
9:40 PM


Saturday, November 18, 2006

This is what i don't really like when it comes to sat. Fri im off and the next day im bck to work urghh!!.
Damn it. No more time to spent goin out with gf and bf. hehe. Could be after work but im so tired and restless to go out + where else should i go. Workin still arnd town area. Urghh bored!/
Betta stay at home and have a godie rest. Haik~]
Euww the christmas tree at my spa is so damn ugly. not much deco and its seems so ugly. Don't bother to deco it. malas. haha. At traders held a bridal exhibition for young couples and the models were so damn gorgeous and beautifool. Haha. I wish i could be in that gown and wear it on my weddin day. yea rite! As if..im like still in my teens..khwhahaa!! Well its alright to berangan kan..hehe!
cheers~
Oh yeah, i met dean at my werkplace. He's so so so hancem and cute lil boy. I loike!! Dean hair is so stylo-milo yeu noe. haha! Next entry i promise to put in his pic and let yeu guys see him and be my judge yea. Serious! hehe. I din get the chance to take a pic with him cos i was so busy wit guest. Urghh!! Next visit k DEan!!
Nutin much i need to add in for today entries.
I MISS A LOADS OFF PEOPLE!
tak terkate! hehe.....
LOVE seiji.

I am bleeding inside.
10:18 PM


Friday, November 17, 2006

grr..im home alone again. Its friday again. Im off today. Has been 19yrs oldie for a week so far.. haha so lame. gushe went to watch movie with her peeps & leave her jie2 all alone at hme.
kinda get bored..nutin much to do. any suggestions?. wanna kol ma gf but for sure they busy with their owns thingy. don wanna disturb them thoh. my moto seems to be so good & quiet today hor. belly the silent. hmm i guess i need some rest and relax myself more nowadays. I get so tense up easily. Gurlfrens NI ZHAI NA LI?..wo nid yeu liao!.
hehe..had watch dvd 'check', eat 'check', bath 'check', clean-up 'check'....whot else shud i do.?
i Just want to go out but no idea where to..tot of watchin movie had last wk on my birthday. The movie step up was way to cool. I loike. cheers! second perhaps i wanna watch the materials gerls by hilary and hailey duff.
whu wanna join me?. haha..yea rite. speakin of movie tot of watcin it at vivo city kinda curious haven't been there since its opening..but with whom?..no idea. plus its near sentosa..maybe nxt wk when my off day again.. sucha long time din go there. Gotta start calling my bf & gf. hehe. pardon me.
Ouh yea btw zouk out is comin up. Event once a year dude. ehee..ritz ask me wether im goin or not..haiz im werkin dude. No choice. I gotta miss it again this time. Urghh! I hate it man. No-no-no get bck on track gee. haha. hmm..i miss someone. So damn fuckin badly yeu noe. Once i get yeu, don try to slip away yea!. toodles. Opps im gettin hungry again. e pancakes doesn't make me so full. Lets call mr pizza_--->>moshi2 hawaiian satu! Byiee....

I am bleeding inside.
4:44 PM


Thursday, November 16, 2006

intact outside but broken inside

cheers!
felt much more betta at work just now. seems a-okie, but still theres a BUt for me..hehe.
cant deny that. Well no matter what the problem wont go anywhere until i settle it by myself.
But i dont know how. Im full of how, why, but and bla bla bla.....dont yeu agree with me.?.
I should perhaps relax myself and dont tense up too much cos i am right now actually. What to do cnt blame it..
I brought it up myself_human nature. hehe! But i cnt denied that my feelings of sadness has just gone like that, its still with me whenever im alone and dreaming to lala land..ishk sort yeu noe.
help_confused gal!
sob-sob

I am bleeding inside.
11:11 PM


Wednesday, November 15, 2006

holla..
at werk tadik my colleagues all seem to find me so strange lately at werk. it seems they realize my changes lately. Till most of them keep on asking me and i wonder why are they acting that way till my supervisor confront me and wanna tok abt it with me since its oways bugging me and othas kip on questioning me but i kept mute and pretend nutin is happening. I know i should not bring my probs to werk even doh i haf one but it seems botherin the othas till they haf to sit and talk abt it with me.

At first i didn't wanna tok abt it but i haf to cos thats the onli way i colud speak out and let my sorrows go..
actually i don told her everyting but just the primary subject so that they get wat i meant thats all. I doesnt want them to worry so much abt me cos they haf been treated me so well at werk till i felt so bad not lettin them noe that i haf a problem which i don wanna tell them abt it. sooner or later they surely know abt it. The person i miss tokin too abt all this crapo abt frenshit_relationshit is IZAh my close colleague but well shes on her maternity leave so i don haf any1 to speak to unless to my sista, whuelse that adek of mineGUSHE~ hehe!.

But sumtimes they just don undstd how i felt right now even myself i don noe how..im totally in blank. seriously.
To pick or not to pick_to choose 1 but not to choose 1! Wat e heck! just see what happens next. To be Continued........

I am bleeding inside.
10:56 PM


Tuesday, November 14, 2006

confused babe!

hei..
i don noe how to start this but each and everytime im alwaes thinkin what am i doing all this while which is so damn fuckin ridicoulus u noe that. im sucha useless babe. i don noe what actually my feelings wants n needs. to tink bck i wish i could just be happy as what im suppose to be but everytime i keep on lookin e past. i don noe how. im stressin myself just bcoz of this crap. friendshit and relationshit. wat e heck. being siingle one time i tot is so damn fuckin freedom to be but in e end i find it more worse than havin one seriously. why must it happen huh..i keep on thinkin but i failed. i met a few guys but for me they are just mutual frens which i hang around but sumtimes my feelings go over broad which leads me to love and bla bla bla....is that true love or stupid love just come and go just like that where me myself don even undstd. i expect people to undstd me but me myself failed again and again. y must it happen???!!!

im being so unfaithful to my own frens(guys). i don trust my own words even. could i just go with the flow meanin what ever happens let it happens as in i don even care or be bothered on what gonna happen if so what people wanna say abt me in e end?..im totally confused now. since my birthday e 10th i keep on thinkin abt this but i failed again. im sucha failure. i know most peeps mite be tinkin im sucha low-down kinda person but wat to expect im so soft hearted till given everytin to e extreme which i tink im such a beeyatch at times. hehe!. hard to say sumtimes wen we don expected it to hapen.

but franklly speakin no matter what happens my love will be only for one if i found one that opens and treasure my heart and try makin me undstd what is the real love since btw no definition to LOVE! wateheck

I am bleeding inside.
10:32 PM


Friday, November 10, 2006


Happy Birthday to Julya.
She turns 19th---101187

I am bleeding inside.
12:00 AM