seiji yoko.
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
confused babe!
hei..
i don noe how to start this but each and everytime im alwaes thinkin what am i doing all this while which is so damn fuckin ridicoulus u noe that. im sucha useless babe. i don noe what actually my feelings wants n needs. to tink bck i wish i could just be happy as what im suppose to be but everytime i keep on lookin e past. i don noe how. im stressin myself just bcoz of this crap. friendshit and relationshit. wat e heck. being siingle one time i tot is so damn fuckin freedom to be but in e end i find it more worse than havin one seriously. why must it happen huh..i keep on thinkin but i failed. i met a few guys but for me they are just mutual frens which i hang around but sumtimes my feelings go over broad which leads me to love and bla bla bla....is that true love or stupid love just come and go just like that where me myself don even undstd. i expect people to undstd me but me myself failed again and again. y must it happen???!!!
im being so unfaithful to my own frens(guys). i don trust my own words even. could i just go with the flow meanin what ever happens let it happens as in i don even care or be bothered on what gonna happen if so what people wanna say abt me in e end?..im totally confused now. since my birthday e 10th i keep on thinkin abt this but i failed again. im sucha failure. i know most peeps mite be tinkin im sucha low-down kinda person but wat to expect im so soft hearted till given everytin to e extreme which i tink im such a beeyatch at times. hehe!. hard to say sumtimes wen we don expected it to hapen.
but franklly speakin no matter what happens my love will be only for one if i found one that opens and treasure my heart and try makin me undstd what is the real love since btw no definition to LOVE! wateheck
I am bleeding inside.
10:32 PM
